Very much in love and very much in hate..

Through that open window of the shattered glass, I can still sense you coming to me…
Running, screaming, panting… longing for me…
And this sudden thought feeds the dying love once again…
Very much in love….I am very much in hate again….

I still miss you by my side…when I lie alone on my bed…
I still miss your arms around me…the momentary love that u fed..
and I still miss those eyes that looked deep inside..
and I still miss the fantasies that went for a ride…
and I still miss those talks that never seemed to end…
coffee at odd hours…making love…beautiful was that each minute spent..
I still miss kissing your eyes before you went to sleep..
I still miss you with every breath I take…
Within me you dwell so deep…

And there came that day… your ego disgraced my love..
And I still remember…me…broken and bluffed…
And I still remember…I was labeled as a pest..
The one who feasted upon your time, space and your fucking friends..
And I still remember…how much unwanted I felt..
Loser to the core, despised when knelt

Once again…I still miss the way you made me laugh…
After those long hours, I cried and craved for your presence with me…
And I still miss your touch…when you hugged me tight and whispered me in the ears..
that you love me..
how we spent those sleepless nights…looking at each other
the time used to fly away.. and it never seemed enough..
And I still miss…those moments that never seemed to last…
Turning off the light…and that slow dance…

You sacked a thunder at me… the way you knocked me out..
Out of your life…out of your mind…
And I still remember…how you said it never mattered
And I still remember…every moment I was shattered
And I still remember…all the times you said I quit..
And I still remember…all the times I begged…cried and trembled…
And I still remember…my creeds unheeded…my despair unheard…
My misery undone…my life spurned..
I still remember…

The battle between the heart and the mind…seems to go on and on…
Split up inside of me…what is right…what was wrong….
I still miss you my love… for I loved you for you being you
I still long to see you with me…together and new..
But I don’t want you anymore…for my love was scorned
Mocked to the depths…of no returning back..
I still cry for you… in the lonely hours..
I still love you…no matter how far..
But I hate you for what you have said and done..
And I hate you for leaving me undone…
Cursed my life…sealed my fate..
Very much in love...I’m feeling very much in hate…