Story of a Sucker!!

Blames, questions and madness…eating away my soul
Feel like a sinner in this life….left to just crawl..
Creeping towards the shadows of the dark,
Empty mind…wounded with words so stark…
Bleeding thoughts poisoning the sanity within..
As the world combines to annihilate my mark..
Sitting alone on a broken porch…
I hate myself for being alive….
And what I hate most…is the fact that I cannot die….
Falling again…and again…because I want to stand tall..
Damned is my every wish….my every want walled…..


I lived for those… who hate me the most..
I cried for those…who hurt me the most…
Guess I was born to be bashed..
Or may be I surrendered my self…in a rash…
Look at me now.. a piece of dismantled dignity..
Creep as I call myself, a wasted reality,

Drink and drop… and wish that I just don’t wake up again..
Loosing all the times to this self made game…
Hating myself every day and every night..
And I deny to see all your wrongs and rights…
The cloud of insanity taking over me…
It makes me feel useless….it makes me feel free…
Sometimes I even try to starve myself to death..
But this inflicted body wants to live through the rest of the hell..
Strange world and strange thoughts surround my mind..
Delusions taking over me…and I feel so blind…
Last night I heard people calling me insane..
I even remember the word jerk… as they called my name..

I guess its another sob story…in this world of ruins..
Same old crap…wrapped in a different kind of news..
But I didn’t mean to wake your mind up..
I didn’t mean to write this and make you come and ask me..ssup.
Maybe my last confessions before death…
Confessions...or I believe my obnoxious naked reality or maybe u can call it crap..

Bbye..world…..i never meant to hurt you…
And I wonder why…why every time u knocked me down
Why every time you gifted the wounds…
Why every time you made me suffer..
Why…was I termed…a bloody sucker….