The Curse to Live on...

And as I cried and craved for death..

The world cursed me with this life..

Sleepless nights, long awaken eyes,

Lurking hatred, billowing high

The deep within beginning to break apart

And the vengeance has taken its start

The gathered stones, marked with my blood,

Lay besides me..

The pain that that incessantly hurts

Lay besides me..

The fear of again waking up tomorrow

Breed besides me..

One more day of mocking sunshine

Mocks besides me..

And I live on, like the never ending black night

I live on..

Like the stagnant water of a mortuary

I live on

Like the murk splattered besides the road

I live on..

And when I got tired of the excruciating breaths

I cried and craved for death

And the world cursed me with this life

Wounds on the skin cried for no more

Soul refused to die this time.

Speechless hurt amok within

Disdained by the very divine

Stained feelings smothered the breadcrumbs of love

Carrying the burden of a stupefied mind

Bury me, burn me you swines.

I wish for one thing, I just wanna die

I just wanna die

Don’t come to wipe my tears,

I have my own hands

Don’t come to console my misery

I have had enough of that

Dig me a grave and bury me there

RIP sign on it placed flat

Coz I have tried to die so many times,

But my breaths refuse to give up

The adamant life line just doest rub

Give me some peace, give me some rest

as I cry and crave for death..

He died long ago...but he never revealed..

The glass shattered and he heard that sound…..

He sensed that gulp, he felt it getting drowned..

A strip of water slashed through the wet rounds

And the pair of knees fell on the ground..

he heard her say, she doesn’t love him anymore

he heard her say, things will not be the same as before..

The world came crashing right before his eyes

he saw it…yes he saw it…he was a witness to his own demise..

Bitter truth..stomped through the fake bloom of momentary smiles..

As the body brimming with love….began to defile

The grief of the gone.. and the denial of the acceptance

A memory incised with slurs of the intense..

Failure to wash away ..failure to forget..

Failure to realize ..failure to pretend..

The wicked spell of the morbid hypnotized the present

Slain as a slave of a pre defeated war..

Jinxed as a curse blessed with abhor

Perched on the precarious balance of reality

Wished for love…left with brutality

Nothingness embraced the shallowness inside..

Misery solaced the long deprived..

As the daylight commits suicide at the sight of the night

His thoughts in his soul..no longer confide..

the whips of agony become his prayers

as the solitude becomes his bride..

the darkness of the black, the revision of the undying..

the sorrow for the day.. and wails for the night

blood for the sight of color.

bleeding to know he is alive

rejection for life…

satisfied to know he’s dying..

surrender to the predicament

lust for lament

smirks at the very thought of recovery

obeying to the calls of the banshee..

refusal to stand up again..

adamant to rest in the grave….

They say….he could not return from his loss..

They say…he insisted on being an exhaust

They say….he cud never forget her….

They say…he waited till he cud no longer..

They say..the broken within him cud not heal

They say….he died…..long ago…..though he never revealed..

Dusk and her embrace..

Dusk and her embrace,,

betwixt the radiant moon and grass,,,

it shone like a diamond,,her eternal face..

the chill in the wind..the reflections of black and silver,,,

her thoughts hugged me tight..she flowed thru my mind like a river...

strange and beautiful..restless and wild..

towards beyond and forever,,i wandered like a child,,

her words that bleed love and care...

her words that bleed rebel and despair,,,

her words.. like the calling of the goddess,,

her words like steel blades..not less..

she used to enlighten the darkness that surrounded..

she used to grave the fear of tomorrow that hounded..

she now gives me comfort.. in solace...

dusk and her embrace,,,

like the tales from the twilight world..

she came riding on the shadows of the black wings..

and pierced into my soul.....making us one..

like the last confessions before death..

she seemed only to me she belonged...

now it all seems just out of place..

now all i sit with..

is dusk and her embrace..

one day she came back for the attack..

she ripped me apart.. as she moved with full speed ahead...

as the bulb on the lamp post perched and clanked..

the storm stuck..the sword and the hand..

my quest for glory.. now wanders on strange highways..

like an ever flowing stream..

i lie in bed awake...thinking about how i got buried again

always last in the line...

sometimes.. in the fading moments i think of her face..

its..

dusk and her embrace..

dusk and her embrace..

About Madness and me..

I call it love
u call it madness..
u call me crazy..
and i feel blessed..
to have u in ma life is the best thing that has happened to me so far
and i'll try ma best to remove all the scars
i know i can't write a love poem like i used to
somehow the words don't seem to come anymore
when i feel like describing how i feel for you... they just seem to blurr
but one thing is for sure,
that my love grows for you everyday ever more

i know sometimes those unnecessary fights try to keep us apart
but then again we are together, like we were since the very start
its just that maybe i'm addicted to talking to you..
or maybe just hearing ur voice, makes me come out of every blue..
i don't say i'll bring the stars down for you..
but i can surely promise.. i can chase the dreams that u see in ur eyes..
for those dreams are no longer yours alone, we see them together...and we rise...
words still fail to let u know, what i feel for you here in my heart
and m sorry for the times, i have made u feel sad and dark,
but one thing is fore sure, and its a truth above all reality,
that i'll love u to the core, till my mortality
sweetheart, i don't want you ever to cry,
its just that sometime i don't speak the right words at the right time,
sometimes, i get lost in my own mind.

but today here i am, looking in your eyes, and holding your hand,
with a promise, that i'll never make u cry, even if i meant to die
i love you my love, and my love is accompanied by madness
and my madness is you, because i love you
i know i still can't write, a poem for you,
which describes how much i feel for you..
but this is all i have to say,,
this is all i have to offer,
this is me sweetheart, with arms wide open,
come, hug me tight, and i'll never let you go...
coz we belong together,
forever
like always..
and my madness for you remains...
coz wat u call madness, i call it love...
and this love is all for you and me.....
just you and me..
you and me...
you me..
us.......

The Forest Whispers my name..

The Forest whispers my name…

Just like the Haunt of an unforgiving shame..

In the closet of broken dreams and detested trust

Lies a puppet…played upon.. betrayed upon

Smothered to hatred….scythed to rage…

Burned in the fire of jealousy blaze..

Now its time… he plays the same game…

Looks right into the eyes and says

The forest whispers my name

Roaring silence of the frozen tears

Defeating death every time it nears…

Draining love…. Stupefying fear…

He walks on the path of the ossified

Where his soul kisses the wind laden with tears,,

But not the tears of the broken ones…

The tears of the life…

Bowing to the mercy of the distressed hearts…

The path where glory of the insignificant ones spells banes…and shouts…

The forest whispers my name.

Evil wanders like a free spirit inside his mind,,

Why, why me… the question makes him blind…

The devil’s is ready and mature

To taste the blood of vengeance

to offer the odyssey of suffering with an ultimate cure…

the dreams of death come alive..

the vision of darkness, bliss deprived…

he screams atop the hill….

Bores right into the shining sun…

Here I come… world.. listen closely the aura of fallacious fame…

The forest whispers my name….

Shackles of ignorance blown apart…

Its time for some to depart….

Its time to pay back…

Its time to snatch… what was left…

Its time… to grave the freedom of atrocity

Its time for me……..

Run…. Till u find earth beneath your feet…

There’s I’ll be waiting.. where you’ll stop…..

I’ll take you the forest of the insignificant ones….

You have been deaf all your life….

But now.. you’ll hear…..

The forest whispers my name

Zombie within the living me...

There’s a zombie within the living me

And he’s lame, pained, disgraced and he can’t see

He is stalked by deception and befriended by agony

He runs to get air for his lungs

But all that is left is the choking he

From a man to an escapist

He’s seen all shades of hell and bliss

There’s a zombie within the living me

He denies to his heart, all the marooned ecstasies

He folds himself in his own boundaries

His will buried deep just like his memories

He sits and talks to that wicked beauty

He questions the reasons, and reasons his questioning

There’s a zombie within the living me

He runs from the wild thoughts of the past

He tries to evade the signs of provocation

But again he falls prey to the unwanted invasion

From the constant repetition of sadness, he cannot get free

There’s a zombie within the living me

Behind the bars of this unwanted life

He plans to break free

The chaos and the silence in his head

He wants to bury

The fist turns red

The walls painted red

The pain in the soul

Spreads throughout his whole

On his knees he starts to pray

If there is any, oh god set me free

He cries and craves for death..

This very zombie within

This very zombie within the living me

Within the living me

Men of Honor..

Clutching to the slipping sheets of time

They face uncertainty like accusers of a crime

Fallen, betrayed, twisted and played

Experimented with love

Left with hate

They walk on the pieces of their broken hearts

Men of honor..

On a prowl for a better start

Witnessed the changing colors of the sky

Blue to black, wicked to stupefying

Misery accompanies them in their adventure for hope

Lessons learnt from the dust in throat

Tagged with the glory of insignificance

Men of three think hard and hence..

Not to be the puppets of emotions they are meant..

Men of honor

Testing the depths of pain and suffering

Diving into the void of an absolute nothing

Verifying the existence of their stoic static

Realizing the realization of those betrayal tactics

They guard the numb walls of their souls thwarted by false hopes

Men of honor

They wave goodbye as the love elopes

Men of honor

They can never love again

Men of honor

Deny walking the same path again

Men of honor

Now rule their world

Men of honor

Till the very end

Men of honor

Standing tall by their stand

Men of honor

Speechless Sorrow

Speechless Sorrow

In a deprecating tone of apology

Life whispered words of loss

Thoughts battled in his mind to find a place for themselves

His lips sealed with utter distraught

Shadowed his will to live

Forced his mind to die

Each feeling like a corpse within its grave

As he pondered on a never ending road of suicidal tendencies

Away from safe

His dignity counseled him to be silent

But the wrath within denied to be suppressed

He lay down on his bed, lost in what he did not know

Speechless sorrow

The irrevocable past and the uncertain future

The melancholy days weep in monotonous despair

The nights wail and howl disdain and distaste

As the pile of magnanimous indifference turns to meticulous hate

His window witnessed the changing colors of his fate

He used to throw a smile on those golden rays

His sad eyes now awake till late

The mocking echoes of his unforgiving past

The taste of betrayal in his head, that never seems to last

The tension of the struggling tears that plead for flood

His eyes deny crying the searing blood

The grief in his heart he just can not show

All that is left is

Speechless sorrow

Rendering his soul into the funeral of love

He surrenders his shadow to the voracious world

6 feet deep and 6 feet long

His body aching for an eternal rest

His dismayed heart tired of the thumping and throngs

His long awaken eyes wanting to kiss the skin of his face

He wants to bury his undying disgrace

Hands on his chest

A journey brought to an end

Silence before and silence again

Underneath the chaos that remained

He never reacted to those perennial no’s

All his life and even now he is left with

Speechless sorrow

Speechless sorrow

Dub thee unforgiven...

I dub thee unforgiven

The chalice of elixir once it seemed

Poison it turned out with every sip

Sugar coated perched words, struck like thunder

As the raindrops of reality washed away the fibs

You slipped in and out with every breath

With a promise of life

You brought me closer to death

The feelings crushed beneath the weight of betrayal

Crumpled and frowned the fine lines of destiny

Irrevocable and stringent the repercussion of my misery…

Now in the shallow moments of wasted time..

I think you had your share of temporary fun…

But I dub thee unforgiven

Surrendered my soul into your hands

All I’m left with a fat, never ending blank

The stupid reasons that you gave me..

Still knock inside my head

Corrosion of reality

Nearness to fatality

Disbelief and distaste

Hate for love and love for the hate

The slipping me never seems to cease

The flood of thoughts and me on knees

I must say girl, you left me in a stark stun

But I dub thee unforgiven

Never to look back

And not to react

The only way left

This only way that you paved for me.

I now choose to walk with will

Suffocating the love that still burns with the breeze

As I wander into the past my present seems to freeze

But I shall not forgive you for the pain you have given

Girl so I dub thee unforgiven

I dub thee unforgiven

Yes I dub thee unforgiven

Darkness in bright sunlight

Darkness in bright sunlight….

As I face this terrible certainty..

The dawn of the darkness greets me warm..

The wanderer in me gets stomped by reality..

I sit and talk to my disgusted loneliness..

It laughs at me and says…suffering is a bless…

I shake my head a several times..

To get the past out of my mind…

The readiness to sacrifice..

the symphony of death.. Surrounds my mind..

I see darkness,. In bright sunlight..

My loves rusts and rots in the bin of my heart..,,

Someone has just broken through my guard..

The dark within now crawls beneath my skin..

As the silent enigma of sorcery pulls me akin…

The will to live…goes out with every breath..

As I seek to venture my journey..

Into never.. never land..

The persistence of time.. has brought me to a point..

Where I seek to enlighten the darkness

As rage on the flames..burns afresh..

the gardens of grief seem to bloom..

metal strikes metal..there it welcomes me.. the much awaited doom..

the stigmata in my soul… begins to ignite…

I see darkness .. in bright sunlight…

From the sane asylum of insanes..

I break free and apart..

The silence becomes my beloved…

Accompanies me.. the momentary lapse of reason..

The realms of chaos I choose to suffocate..

The wasted hope and love..inside that wails..

It seems a battle between insanity and pain

who dares wins..

who takes away the game..

However, The death shall rise…

Eating back at life..

And I’ll offer my soul..to the whirler of fate.

Diving into void… it seems so right..

I close my eyes.. and here it comes..

Darkness in bright sunlight..