All i have to do is take my mind off her...

And all I have to do is take my mind off her..
And all I have to do is forget her…

Sharp words daggered into my heart…left my soul to bleed.
It felt heavy and hard…as it fell on me, my most cherished creed
Love they say is accompanied by madness and is blind..
But my love had eyes, they saw the blade….it left me to the grind..
Every emotion thwarted and smashed against her hate…
She stood tall as ever…and I lay down and dead…stretched straight..

Her thoughts questioned and inquired my efforts
Her sanity….blamed me…spoofed my insane guts…
Utter refusal was the answer to my every endeavor..
Denial was the repercussion to my ever-longing behavior..
She pulled the moments out of my soul…
Examined, analyzed and dropped them on the floor..
Black was the reward to the rainbow of my love..
The cost was counted and it left me feeling like a whore…

The echoes were quite…the lull prevailed..
The storm had struck…my care was nailed..
And I felt the pain…down to my heart..
She came.. and finished me up… while I was looking for a start..
Fights.. had gone worse…taste of the bitter began to sprawl..
the walls that guarded the love…began to fall…
the damage was maximum this time..
it left no traces of trembling hopes..
which held us back after every nightmare…
no more were those ropes..

the world has counseled me to move on….
My silence counseled me to move on…
My brain counseled me to move on…
But the journey has already come to an end…
Fate, luck, charm….nothing on no more I depend..
The lines seem to vanish away real fast…
The numbered breathes…preparing for the last..
Sleepless eyes… chasing away the night from the window of the room…
The day begins to mourn…my unspoken doom….

It has been days now…life is slowly crawling towards death…
I can feel them getting tired…I can feel my exasperated breaths..
And still… they try to wake me up from my past..
And still they try to make me believe I should last…
And I still remember they speak the same words as ever before…

all I have to do is take my mind off her..
And all I have to do is forget her…

Story of a Sucker!!

Blames, questions and madness…eating away my soul
Feel like a sinner in this life….left to just crawl..
Creeping towards the shadows of the dark,
Empty mind…wounded with words so stark…
Bleeding thoughts poisoning the sanity within..
As the world combines to annihilate my mark..
Sitting alone on a broken porch…
I hate myself for being alive….
And what I hate most…is the fact that I cannot die….
Falling again…and again…because I want to stand tall..
Damned is my every wish….my every want walled…..


I lived for those… who hate me the most..
I cried for those…who hurt me the most…
Guess I was born to be bashed..
Or may be I surrendered my self…in a rash…
Look at me now.. a piece of dismantled dignity..
Creep as I call myself, a wasted reality,

Drink and drop… and wish that I just don’t wake up again..
Loosing all the times to this self made game…
Hating myself every day and every night..
And I deny to see all your wrongs and rights…
The cloud of insanity taking over me…
It makes me feel useless….it makes me feel free…
Sometimes I even try to starve myself to death..
But this inflicted body wants to live through the rest of the hell..
Strange world and strange thoughts surround my mind..
Delusions taking over me…and I feel so blind…
Last night I heard people calling me insane..
I even remember the word jerk… as they called my name..

I guess its another sob story…in this world of ruins..
Same old crap…wrapped in a different kind of news..
But I didn’t mean to wake your mind up..
I didn’t mean to write this and make you come and ask me..ssup.
Maybe my last confessions before death…
Confessions...or I believe my obnoxious naked reality or maybe u can call it crap..

Bbye..world…..i never meant to hurt you…
And I wonder why…why every time u knocked me down
Why every time you gifted the wounds…
Why every time you made me suffer..
Why…was I termed…a bloody sucker….

The Eleven Satanic Rules of the Earth

The Eleven Satanic Rules of the Earth

by Anton Szandor LaVey ©1967

1. Do not give opinions or advice unless you are asked.

2. Do not tell your troubles to others unless you are sure they want to hear them.

3. When in another’s lair, show him respect or else do not go there.

4. If a guest in your lair annoys you, treat him cruelly and without mercy.

5. Do not make sexual advances unless you are given the mating signal.

6. Do not take that which does not belong to you unless it is a burden to the other person and he cries out to be relieved.

7. Acknowledge the power of magic if you have employed it successfully to obtain your desires. If you deny the power of magic after having called upon it with success, you will lose all you have obtained.

8. Do not complain about anything to which you need not subject yourself.

9. Do not harm little children.

10. Do not kill non-human animals unless you are attacked or for your food.

11. When walking in open territory, bother no one. If someone bothers you, ask him to stop. If he does not stop, destroy him.